A year later

 It's been almost a year since I officially called quits on a decade long relationship. While I was in it, I clearly stated what was okay and what was not okay (only now I realize that teaching things like these was not my job, yes, working through mistakes is one thing, but I didn't have to say that cheating is not okay). The problem was, the other party took advantage of my need to give chances and focus on the best of people. The universe gave a clear exit for me a year ago, and I took it.

What I realized was, the past year I have been grieving and reliving those moments to the extent of not even realizing that it has been a year. A decade of my life was already spent on this person and I spent an additional year reliving the past horrors (also some good moments). The whole point of calling it quits was to give my mind some peace and quiet (finally) after enduring so much trauma. Before I even think about how I want to spend whatever time I have left, I need to stop reliving in the past. 

 The ex will not be a part of my future, so having thoughts about him (anger, sadness, etc) is simply going back to a past that  doesn't exist in the now. I need to keep reminding myself of this and keep focusing on the present.